Quitting is forever…


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Some of you who follow me on Facebook might have seen me post the other day that I am, and I quote, a waffley waffler from Waffle Town.

Nonsense, right?  As in, that is a sentence made up of nonsense words that do not compute into actual communication?  Well, here’s what I meant…

The other day I was on Healthy Tipping Point reading Caitlin’s Riding 100 Miles recap (part II), which led me to read her Disney Marathon recap from January.  I find Caitlin pretty inspirational in general, but something in particular grabbed me as I was reading through her marathon recap.  At mile 24, when she was battling to finish and having pain with every step, she saw this:

‘Pain is temporary, quitting is forever’

Reading that almost took my breath away, and I definitely got tears in my eyes.  It made me rethink my Couch to 5K experience.  Does it suck?  Yes.  But I KNOW that I have the physical capability to do it…

Honestly, I am debating even posting this because I feel ridiculous with my constant back and forth on running.  This blog is about truth though, about my journey and all of its ups and downs, so here is my current truth.

I CAN complete C25K.  I may not enjoy it (and I may) but in the end it will be a couple of weeks out of my whole life and will end with me being able to complete something HUGE.  To be able to finish a 5K race would be a BIG deal for me, and then once it’s done it won’t matter if I ever run another step.  So I might hate every single step of running, and I might have to repeat week after week forever, but in the end I just can’t quit.  I want to prove to myself that I can do it.

Strangely, I feel like giving myself permission to quit is part of what made me realize it was important to me not to.  When I took the pressure off of myself to do it a certain way… or at all… it changed how I felt about it.  I’m finishing out this week of exercise slacking, and then I’ll restart week 4 on Monday.

I promise I’m not being wishy-washy on purpose, and I genuinely hope this will be the last time I change my mind about running.  But if it’s not… I’ll be here to post about it.

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6 Responses

  1. […] Quitting is forever… […]

  2. I’m really glad you reconsidered. I knew you could do it-but I didn’t think you knew you could it. If you can do an hour of bodystep or whatever it’s called, you can jog/walk for just 30 minutes. You just have to push yourself. It is very uncomfortable. It’s not fun (eating chips on the couch is fun, but that’s how we got in trouble in the first place). I want to quit every time I am running especially now that I am in week 4 doing those damn 5 minute runs. But I don’t give in because I know it’s just my body complaining (I want chips!) and that I really CAN do it. I just try to imagine what it will be like when running is easy (or at least easier). Each day I get out there and do it I am one day closer to that. I won’t let my “lazy gene” take that away from me.

  3. 😀

    I knew you could do it!

  4. Good for you! I’m really glad you’re going to finish it. Just think of the sense of accomplishment when you’re done. I’ve yet to start week 1, but I’ll get there!

  5. […] still haven’t gotten back to C25K, and the longer I go without running the more terrified I am of starting again.  Honestly, a lot […]

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